Writing about me
has never really been something that comes easily because finding the right
words to share personal experiences is difficult to do at times. Hopefully as I
begin this journey, I’ll share the best parts of my life- or at least the parts
I can remember.
Birth-4
years old
I was born in Pueblo, Colorado on
June 8, 1989 at 11:29 in the morning. My mom gave birth to me at Parkview
Medical Center and I was healthy and quite large coming in at a whopping 9 lbs
12 oz and 20 inches (my poor sweet mother…) I was the second child. My oldest
sister Amy was born 2 years and three days before me.
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Amy-2, Me-6 months |
My parents had a thing
for June babies because 4 of the 5 kids in our family were born in June and all
in chronological order- Amy June 5th, Alexis June 8th,
Jacob June 19th, and Elias June 21st. The brother born
after me, Jordan, was somehow born September 24th. He shares a birthday with my
grandfather and my great grandmother, so he doesn’t feel too left out.
I
have very few memories from this time in my life but the few I do have are
precious to me. When I was about 3 or 4, I remember living on 24th
street in a red brick home. I don’t remember much about it, other than the time
I had there was happy.
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Mom holding Amy- 2 years, Dad holding me- one month old. This is the house I was born in but moved to the red brick home shortly after my birth. |
My
sister and I used to pick the strawberries out of my dad’s garden, and although
he was mad at us for eating them all, I can almost remember how sweet and
delicious they were. We picked every last one! Amy and I would run around the
yard and my mom would sit on the steps of the front porch and watch us play. We
would swing with her on the porch swing into the evening. Sometimes, my parents
would take us on walks to Mineral Palace Park where we would feed the ducks, or
we’d go to City Park where we would ride the train around a little pond filled
with fish. I remember walking to a small ice cream shop down the street with my
dad where he would let us each get our own ice cream cones. This memory is
important to me because I’ve learned what a sacrifice financially our
excursions must have been for my parents. Looking back now I realize how
incredibly poor my parents were. My dad worked 45 hours a week managing a
recycling center so we didn’t see him very often. He did anything he could to
provide for our family. My mom also worked at an eye clinic and we spent a lot
of time at Grandma and Grandpa’s house. The time we did spend with my parents
was priceless.
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Dad, Mom, Amy- 4 years, Me- 2 years and mom is pregnant with Jordan |
Grandma
Carrie and Grandpa Glen lived down the street in a beautiful white house with a
garden springing with color and life. Grandpa had the most beautiful flowers I’d
ever seen and every time I see an iris, I think of him. During the spring, Amy,
my brother Jordan and I would help him plant crocuses in the garden out by the
pigeon coup. He’d dig the hole and we’d drop the bulbs into the dirt. I’ll
never forget the smell, or looking at my filthy hands, enjoying every second I
was sharing with Grandpa. He was such a big man. Even to this day he still
towers over me. At first glance, you would never think he would be interested
in flowers, or art but Grandpa Glen
could see beauty in everything. He’s always had an eye for it. I remember once
going to visit his mother, Grandma Leona Rollins when I was about 4. She was
older, but her smile was inviting. We only visited a few times before she
passed away, but I really enjoyed the time we had with her. Grandma Leona
raised her kids a single mom because she and Grandpa’s father Ferrill had
gotten a divorce long before I was born.
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Grandma Leona, Dad, Amy-4, Alexis-2 |
Being raised by only his mother, Grandpa
learned to appreciate things women appreciate as well as the masculine
qualities he possesses. He taught me to love flowers and nature. I loved
breaking off a honey suckle from his honeysuckle bush and tasting the sweetness
of the nectar, or taking a bite out of a piece of bitter rhubarb. As a young
child, his garden seemed magical.
We
spent plenty of time with Grandma Carrie too. Grandma used to tend us while my
mom was at work. We’d play with play dough, put puzzles together, or my
favorite, make sugar or pineapple cookies.
Grandma used to let us cut them out and put sprinkles on them and I
loved doing it! She would buy stick on earrings and let us put them on while
painting our finger nails. Grandma had a way of making us feel special. I
remember once when I saw her brass clock in a cloche on her dresser. I thought
it looked like the container from Beauty and the Beast holding the enchanted
rose. I took the glass container off, pretending I was Belle, and nearly broke
it. Grandma saw what I did and put me in the corner. I remember being very sad
while in the corner but when the time came to come out, she hugged me and told
me she loved me. She wanted me to be safe and was afraid I would break the
glass and hurt myself. I never touched the glass again but I knew even if I
made mistakes grandma would still love me.
My mom and grandma recently told me
some stories of when I was younger to help me remember what I was like. Mom
said I used to walk around the house with a bottle hanging between my two front
teeth. I had nothing on but a pair of undies and a straw floppy hat. I would
dance and sing. When I couldn’t find my bottle I would walk around the house
saying “b aba milky?” Those bottle days were really bad for my teeth. I
remember going to the dentist once when I was little and being put under
laughing gas so I could get silver caps on my teeth. Those caps stayed there
until I was about 6 and lost the tooth but up until then I looked like a
pirate.
When I was 3, Amy, Jordan, and I got
the chicken pox. Grandma made an oatmeal bath for us and we all were miserable.
During this time, my mom told me I was trying to ride my tricycle, but Amy got
on it instead. I was furious with her so my mom had me sit in the bucket on the
back. I fell in and while I was flailing I scraped up my chicken pox really
bad. Needless to say mom had to deal with a very grumpy three year old.
When
I turned 4 years old, my parents bought another house in town on Settlers Ave.
The house was a nightmare to begin with but my dad made it beautiful. This was
the house we grew up in (with the exception of a year) for nearly 17 years and
is where most of my childhood memories take place. The house on Settlers started out creamy colored but my parents
painted it blue and I can still picture it in my mind like I am still living
there.
5-8
years Old
When
we were younger, Amy had a hard time letting me play with her. She had friends
that lived on our new street and she didn’t want her obnoxious younger sister
butting into her fun. Although at the time I didn’t understand why she didn’t
want me around, I do now. I was a know it all! I always had to be right and if
I wasn’t, I was mad at you. I spent a lot of time by myself on our trampoline.
I have journal entries from this time in my life that all say “today I jumped
on the trampoline,” so my sister still has to give me a hard time. Although we
didn’t always get along, I remember quite a few times we did play together.
Once
we were pretending we were dodo birds. Amy made me put a sock on my nose and we
separated the sectional in the basement. We jumped from piece to piece
squawking like birds. It must have been awful for my parents, but we sure had
fun. We also frequently pretended we were Indians rowing a canoe (laundry
basket with a broom). Amy had quite the imagination and it was fun when she
actually did let me play.
One
summer, my parents let Amy and I fly on a plane to visit our grandparents in
Evergreen Park, Illinois. I was scared out of my mind, but flying was amazing.
Staying at Grandma Carol’s and Grandpa Mikes was so much fun too. We went to
lake Christy in Michigan, watched fireworks on the fourth of July, had our
first pig roast, and went to our first Catholic Mass. Growing up in an LDS
home, this was a new experience for me. Being young, naïve, and unsure of what
to do, I had no idea we weren’t supposed to drink the wine. As I tried to do
so, Amy freaked out and made a scene. I’m grateful she did because I honestly
had no idea. We came back looking to Colorado looking like little chipmunks
because we had gained so much weight from our Grandparents fattening us up. It
was a great experience and we flew back with my brother the next summer as
well. That summer my brother Jacob was also born.
When
I was 6 my parents started doing foster care to supply some income for the
family. Many of the kids were in really bad situations and my parents tried to
help the best they could. Erin and Michelle were two kids that my parents took
in. They stayed with us for years and my parents nearly adopted them. We loved
them so much. Erin and my sister were about the same age and we all played like
we were family. Once when Erin was eating spaghetti, she had a noodle come out
of her nose because of a clef pallet. I can honestly say this was one of the
funniest dinners I’ve ever experienced, even at such a young age. Maybe it was
just funny because of how young I was. Nonetheless, thinking about that moment
still makes me smile.
Erin,
Amy and I also fought like sisters. When I was probably close to 7, I remember
Amy coming upstairs crying because Erin had dug her fingernails into Amy’s arm
and broken the skin. They used to fight like this all the time, and I tried to
avoid it, but sometimes things got ugly. Once when we had Michael and Michaela
at our house (our friends from school), we all got into a fight that we called
World War 3. We all beat the tar out of each other. I’m not sure how my parents
handled us! Even though we were rotten sometimes and fought, we still enjoyed
playing together.
When
I was about 7 years old, I decided I wanted to roller skate in the house.
Little did I know how much damage it would cause! I strapped on the skates and
went whizzing around. Amy pushed me trying to give me a boost and I went flying
into the wall. The stopper on my skate broke a huge hole and I was terrified my
parents would kill me. I remember my dad coming down the stairs and cussing.
Now he has never been a cussing man, so when this happened we were in shock. He
learned his lesson though because my brother Jacob repeated what he said about
a hundred times and we all thought it was hilarious. Needless to say my dad didn’t
cuss again after that.
I
was baptized and confirmed on July 6, 1997 at the age of 8. My dad and I
practiced dunking me, and I was a little nervous but mostly excited. I remember
my cousin and best friend Anna telling me that when I came up out of the water,
all my scratches, bruises, and marks would we washed away. So when the time
came to go under, I couldn’t wait to lose my bruises. I was gravely
disappointed when they weren’t all gone however. I do remember feeling clean
though and I remember feeling the spirit for the first time in my life. The
spirit has been such a great blessing.
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Amy-10, Alexis-8, Jordan-6, Jacob-2, Elias- 6 months |
We
had a neighbor named Ashley King who was made of trouble. One night he decided
he was going to play a prank on us so he got an old refrigerator box and got
inside of it. He rang our doorbell and weighted. When we came to the door, he
jumped out and scared us all. Being the know it all that I was, I decided I was
going to do the same thing. I took the box to his house, got inside and rang
the doorbell. Unfortunately for me, he knew what I was doing and caught me in
the act. (How could I have known right? Sarcasm included.) I went home
dejected. When I tried to get the box off my head, I realized it was stuck to
my head. There was a big wad of duct tape on the inside, and I couldn’t get it
out of my hair. I came into the house with that enormous box on my head, and
hit the huge southwestern vase in our foyer. My dad had saved for years to buy
the vase and had wanted one for a very long time. That vase tipped over and
cracked clean down the middle. I knew I was a dead man. I cried and cried. My
dad told me to “get in the bathroom,” where we were spanked. While I was
waiting for my demise my mom took my dad aside sternly and said, “Nate, what is
more important, your daughter or a stupid vase.” She saved me! My dad softened
up and I will always be grateful to her for saving me from a whoopin that day.
Once
when I was 8, my friend Maddie and I went to the golf course by her house. We
decided we wanted to lie in the sand pit like we were on the beach. Being
stupid little girls, we stripped down to our nothings and lied in the sand in
the middle of the field. Heaven only knows who saw us that day.
Another
time my sister and I got into a fight and I threw a tap shoe at her head. She
retaliated by ripping drawer out of our dresser and chucking at me. We
definitely deserved our spankings this day. From these experiences, I realized
I was quite the trouble maker. I was also turning into quite a tomboy. I loved
soccer! My dad coached my team from age 6-8. I also wanted nothing to do with
dolls or girlie things, and I hated wearing dresses.